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BOOYEHHH DECA!

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 03:43:55 GMT

FIRST OF ALL... just got back from deca regionals...
CONGRATS TO EVERYONE =) IM Proud of you
.. beat goetz... NOW we're gonan fucking beat xavier LOL
=) omgaddd first time i ever freggin won anything =D GREAT
and congrats to everyone for doing well and winning
YO we got provincials & Internationals dammit!
florida.. here we COME =D

yeah so obviously im pumped.. but with this pumpedness n awards n shit...
I CANT HEAR MYSELF! wth goetz ppl play their music so damn loud

... so fuck phealan's test tomorrow honestly.. all i hear in my head right now is that kids freggin beat boxing LOL it was good but i mean TURN DOWN THE VOLUME =D sooo.. those of you who were there... understand me

CHYEH

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 19:07:01 GMT

okay g2 in two weeks
DECEMBER 15, 2006
.. FREEDOM...
providing i do pass =/ uh ohhh.

mmmm formal saturday ...great? mm not as excited, still deciding

two-three shifts a week at work.. .busy busy month.. haha so busy we had to have a work party on a week day GAY.
watever =) means money... means paying for ppls christmas presents.. dammit.

sixty

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 14:35:00 GMT

ahaha FACE bOOK is the shit =D my new addiction lol
anyways look what i found on it:

60 things girls just need to understand about guys:

1. Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than ALOT OF GUYS..you're a HOE) (Also this one, i'll change if people want me to, people have different life styles)

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3... Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. (Some feel this should be removed...so i'll take a vote...msg me if u want it removed, majorty rules)

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-an
d-then-have-her-realize-ho
w-wonderful-and-nice-you-a
re method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's
too-good-never-been-busted
, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

52. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

53. We love it when girls talk about there ass.

54. Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

55. Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

56. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.

57. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

58. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

59. Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

60. When a guy sacerfices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

K so i guess it might explain a lot of dumbasses lol.
so yeah weeks been abnormally relaxing... i think im getting a lil to slack lol but i kinda like it. mid-terms r alright i guess, gotta bring it up.

HAlf day today! score =D i actually like comming to class n doing nothing for half an hour

haha k so if you guys know mario.. can u say anger management. So to piss him off in economics sean hacked into his comptuer n made porn n messages pop on his desk top. LOL by the time he closed them all...the timer went off LOL and his computer automaticcally restarted LMFAO he did it like 3 times before he realized what happend LOL what a dumbass! LOL he was getting so pised too.. awh im soo mean, but i twas soo freggin funny!

g2 3 weeks? ...*sighs* .. more like 2 months cus im gonan fail lol failed the practice test =/ good luck to me?

western tomorrow, waking up at 6am =/ greatt

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 16:53:09 GMT

"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same ...
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come"

rocky week... what i accomplished:

dropped outta night school

fcked up everyones picture in the yearbook =D congrats half the gr.12s r gonna be mixed in with the niners

realized starbucks/second cup makes you feel so much better on a not-feeling-yourself-dreaming-day EXACTLY what i needed

mmmm honey garlic chicken

prom comittee taste testing!

realized burbon chicken & long girl talks make you feel EVEN BETTER on a... not-feeling.. day

let someone know they're not the only one
...notice most things i accomplish happen during lunch or eating, its MAGICAL lol

AHH =D THEY FOUND MY PURSEEE!
bahaha like two weeks ago i think? i forgot my purse on the bus.. so yesterday square one called n they found it =D YES as of yesterday ive saved $50 =/ good thing i didnt go for another card thing.
...if they found it.. does this mean i have to give them money?

Anyone need SPC cards =D GET AT ME!
ugh i need to get rid of this shit!
$8 + a FREE prize pack which includes: free fries at burger king, gum, A caugh drop, post-its, and a high lighter.. + a shit more?

Gotta remmeber...when your thinking about whats happend in the past, you gotta remmeber how freaking long ago it was. High school is slipping through everyones fingers way to fast. LOL but no ones goal is to stay.

my CC {Current Craving}

a reallly fatty burger with a candy apple on the side
hahah for some reason right now it sounds soo appealing

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 02:08:27 GMT

drop night school... so i'll be unbusy?
... mm and u know how I have to always be occupied.
and id rather be doing anything then sit at home.
so...

2nd job?
yes? no? maybe? suicide? hahah man.

so this week i've had the weirdest fruity cravings...
fruity ice cream = peach mango frozen yogurt & sugar cones
juicey mango = SAD couldnt find a mango
fruity drink = haha NO WHERE close but i made a green tea frap from the green tea drink powder stuff uncle got from second cup to try n satisfy my cravings lol
but now all i really want is HARD CAFFEEN... dont ask why LOL i dont know why?

3 simple rules

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 06:10:37 GMT

oooh today was freaking insane.. spending the whole day figuring out what to do.. eventually just going to square wit angee n thea =) MMMM eat chinese food that gave us major idis @ i forgot the name but yeah that was awsome good talk girls ;)

okay sooo
3 simple rules
1) dont ever tell a guy you like them first
2) dont ever ask a guy out
3) dont ever make the first move

whoooohooo my three simple rules. Actually they're pretty common sense. pretty good but pretty... yeah like always rules dont always work but they seem to do the job most of the time. yooo break them n a lot of shit can come out of that. but yeahhh iunno LOL old fashioned but i still think guys have to dothings no matter wat LOL doesnt matter if they're not psycic.. they should just know righttttt? hhaha or do some research if they can bahaha makes them work harder. whoa but seriously, most of the time the girls that break em... get bit inthe ass harderrr... ahaha n its a set up for like disaster.
So im sticking to my roots bahaha have fun with that.

sooo LOL im dropping out of night school... my teachers soooo fckked =/ Like WHAT teacher doesnt give notes... FOR CALCULUS?! watever i figure i'll stay till mid term.. that way next semester i'll know whats going on till mid term.. cus thats all that REALLY REALLY matters right? meh im starting to get slackk gotta pick it up and try a lil harder.

ahaha you KNOW i cant take orders from people

work is kinda really funny. stupid amatures trying to set up this big blow up thingg on the ice hahaha watching them SLIP is the greatest tho. iunno ahhaa if you know me =D I take GREAT JOY and amusement watching people fall and make a fool outta themselves. so it takes them like half n hour or so to set this big thinggie up .. hahaha and in 10 seconds it comes down hahaha! i hope one day oneof them slips n hits their head on the ice n goes all delusional.. ohhh man id like die! hahah that sounds so bad. BUT I KNOW YOU think its FUNNY!

this week was sucha waste... never a full day of school =/ welps next week its all catch up?

if its not your problem.. then its not worth your effort.. haha then stop thinking about it.. cus wats the point?

BACKFIRE

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 04:11:06 GMT

LMFAO OKAY HERES something funny....

sooo yesterday i thought i wasnt SICK ENOUGH for my mom to let me NOT go to school.. so i was gonan fake being really sick....

... THEN I GOT REALLY SICK =/ and im dyinggg , my voice is gone =( great larengitis.. i guess im house bound. i tried going to night school today... badd badddddd idea though.. LOL IM SCARED of going to the doctors =/ another broncodialator n more blackouts rnt gonna help me much soo fck dat shit! So this morning i tried calling marcus hahaha and MAN THAt was the hardest thing to do the whole day :| he couldnt even hear me.. thnk god for txting! man seriously caughing every 10 seconds cant be good. i swear at work yesterday everyone was looking at me like i had sars or something =/ uhhh ohhh LOL!

soo 10 hours in bed...watching movies.. n i never finished any of them cus i kept falling asleep. watever.. heres to more projects =/

wow.. communications my life =/ without a voice i feel like im missing a part of me LOL

... UGH :@ i sound like "a guy in puberty" LMFAO

the end too the week .. the WEEKEND

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 03:59:19 GMT

soo end of the week was pretty good
philosophy: looking at cars the whole time
economics: I ACTUALLY had an article prepared =) NO comments added, no comments missing WHOAA whos good =)
international business: ... suply teacher.. need i say more?
even though screamers kinda flopped maybe nexttt time

FRidays ghetto story:
- after school went to the mall wit thea for some quaaaaali-thea time
- mmmmm LOL ate jelly bellies which SHE never had.. and drank some yummy REALLY EXTRA Sweet chocolate thinggie at second cup which I NEVER had .. Yo! LOL spc upgrades are the SHIT!
- mom got worried cus my dad hasnt been home for like 5 hours that he was supposed to be.. LOL
so let me tell you when i got home =D MY CAR BROKE DOWN AGAIN ahhahaha now i really dotn trust it =/
- AWWWHW so the CUTEST MOST CUDDLIEST AWSOME THIN EVER THAT ALMOST made me cry on the bus ... and if i said it on lj she'd kick my ass =D.. hhaha i also saw ppl that were too busy "Going out to eat" then to come with meee =( LOL
- saw texas chainsaw masacre... THE BEGGINING... haha the end was better =P the first version, still popping out scary and shit tho!
- saw more popping out scary shit... stupid.. girl... HAHAHa & UNDERWear boyy
- 1) who comes to the movies drunk... 2) with a girl hahahha

saturday:
- SICKKK! ... caughing was like.. gagging
- went to C.O anyways.. congrats =) all 22 participants came back.. well 21 but the other one wanted to come it was just complicated =)
- haha jesus on the rockk
- LEARNT songs on the guitarrr wheehee im on a roll
- marcus forgot the camera sooo LOL instead of working we watched ANOTHER movie w/ the coronels Jackass 2 anyone? ... + there was one scene i couldnt even loook at =/ throw up on throw up man GROSSS
- "Omg... it suddenly got brighter in here"

Sunday:
- filmed in the morning
- went to julius's surprise lunch... LOL even later then he was =/ ooops
- hahah hazel's "BET"
- JULIUS's PRESENT owned =) the whole $1.68 cents of it! + the "loving wife card"
- went to work.. with a raspy voice & no glasses... IT WAS SOOO HARD
- left my cell in the car... used like 4 quarters to get to ppl! geeeeeebeees i thought iw as like stranded.
- haha tried to work on the project more... its just not working =/

PLEASE make this week better than last week.
Over all.. awsome weekend pretty sickkk... both ways. well that was a breazerr & a break.. now tons of projects tons of tests commin up =/ ughh dont even get me started on calc.

hmm i think im REALLY one of those people that dont say anything unless someone else brings it up.

kk my FIRST attempt of faking sick for tomorrow =) WISH ME LUCK ..yeah not gonna work but i can try comming home early if ne thing RIGHTTT =D

okaaay dumbass

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 03:22:34 GMT

LMFAO its like BARF! meanwhile, i do my best too keep it all in, but eventually everyone knows its gonna come out

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
COLLEGE is looking SOOOOO MUCH BETTER FOR ME RIGHT NOW.
fakkkkking calculus. =@ I HATEEE IT.

really bad week, like everyone else i guess... wth.

the principles of diminishing value:
originating from stupid concepts in economics.. but made relatable by angela and rachel. The principles of diminishing value according to angela and rachel are the principles in which a value of something that would satisfy one would decrease with each added something consumed.
For example. Say u had coffee... and u had another cofeee.. and another coffee... each coffee would be less satisfying then the one before it. Like the first coffee tasted better than the 2nd one and the 2nd tasting better than the 3rd. It reaches a point where the coffee is actually not satisfyable at all. So replace the coffe with something and figure it out. it actually kinda makes sense! GOODjob angela! ♥

you never really get what you expect...
YOU get even LESS.

on the bright side.. the weeks almost over. ugh here comes another week full of tests n shit.

you know what im really craving right now... a sugar high. i wanna laugh agenn really really hard for no reason. u know what i think, i think i just need to get out more lol.

well as norelle says: "im waiting for something to juss..LIKE TAKE ME BY SURPRISE AND MAKE LIFE..INTERESTING!" well... yah.

really cranky week..sorry if i freaked out on you. i think i have the worst anxiety ever.

Theres nothing like a really long girl talk and a cup of caramel machiatto to keep me sane =D

effort

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 00:06:26 GMT

okay so ... bummer that we actually have to try this year

sickk weekend.. literally sick but i got up n did the fun stuff n eways :P sorry if im contageous guys.
friday - in bedd all day
saturday - davids hoooteriffic birthday [see angee's lj for pictures] ahhaha "he's 12 ...AWWWWWWH"
sunday - CIBC run for the cure & university fair

soo half stress half fun?

fridays news was good...mondays news was bad.. guess it all balances out.

camp this week end...no comment

timing of everything sucks. totally let the exec down. washington = CANCELLED. due to no teacher advisor.

"but it don't get no better
as each day goes by
and i'm lost and confused
i've got nothin to lose..."

on the bright side. im just brushing things off. honestly i cant be bothered with doing things that rnt even gonna help me out. Sorry but its just not gonna work. gotta drop it. Things are starting to look up. CHRISTMAS IS COMMING! hahah.. eah yhea fine its not even halloween.. but still OMG =D an excuse for shopping. which means.. calc ends soon. im slowly learning how to take a breather.

Went to thea's after school had our girl talks let stuff out.. [haha n thea.. im not admiting it still :P] ate soo much loblaws foood = fat but YUMMY plus watched lakehouse. Awwwh that movies sooooo freaking CUTE! I swearrrr wth! its soo ... twisted but i love it. freggin lists. "we never talked about what we liked......"
- Sand
- short walks on beaches
- cold water touching my feet
- single roses
- txt messages
- lj comments
- girl talks ♥
- comming home before night school
- free time
- bumming around
- underground PATH toronto
- the smell of chicken while its cooking =D

what we need...

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 02:45:17 GMT

okay soo... i was watching greys annatomy and it dawned on me... YOU Know whad be REALLY Sick .. n u know what we really need... a bar infront of the school... not so ppl could get drunk all the time. obviously but i mean... if u watch the show u'll know what im talkin about. everytime soething fucks up at school or at work... u can just walk across the street.. complain about it.. then come back to whatever u were doing and act like it never happend. haha sounds cool

haha yeahh so for some reason people started asking me for terry fox forms in first period... n iw as like =/ i have no idea what the hell it is or where to get them. n ppl were like "dont u run everything" .... NO! omg! i swear people think i run everything =/ kk fine i admit im prrly the biggest nerd in the most things after school...deca prez, yearbook editor, house head prefect, and those i comit to outside of school watever the fuck, but still. I know i can do it, but i still need the other ppl to freaking help out. okay soo tell me how the position i was dying for last year bite me in the ass this year? i swear all this responsibility. i need to clean up. i keep for getitng thign when ppl are relying on me. the whole flop was my fault. and was blamed on me for everything, fine i take full responsibility for it, even tho its not fully me. People had their own take on that day where things have to be etc. not everything should just be "ASSUMED" that one person did it no matter what their rank. you know what, i now totally have so much respect for those people... the dance leaders, chapter heads, cluster heads, student council presidents n all that shit .. cus they put up with a lot more shit then ppl tend to think. being me, im soo easily intimidated which i need to change, cus i need to take charge, n thats the only way things will get done. so i was thinking... what if i...i need to step down...

from at least some things.

whooo hooo! i earnd 25 bucks today in bets =D
and dispite this horrible week...and the two tests i have on monday... IM EXCITED FOR THE WEEKEND =D x infinity...

it makes my day.

fyi.

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 02:43:07 GMT

happy birthday Deo you nerrrrrd =)
...FYI! ZEBRAS are not deers

k so first day of night school... AHHHH teacher = not so understandable? Like a nother mr. plummer... except he's funnier n doesnt pick on ppl... iunno uh oh we'll see how it goes. its not that bad but... yeh. the 15 min break is kinda pointless... and running to pizza pizza in the rain is even more pointless. lol for some reason the teacher was talking about some teacher running aruond the halls naked or something for some dress code.. watever lol but all i caught out of that was the nakedness =/

... k yeah im getting soo sick of some ppls faces.. ahhaha no offence but STOP FOLLOWING ME arghh

so let me tell you how my dad let me drive the car for tHE FIRST TIME EVER cus he doesnt trust me... so he let me drive it in he parking lot at faustina... kk so now lemme get into the detail of me taking a left turn and the car FULLY BREAKIN GDOWN ON ME! so i turned left n my dad was like.. GAS IT n i was like I AM GASSING IT and it gos.. dooo....doooosh...doooooooos... BOOOOOOOOM n the engin just FULLY STOPS! =/ haha battery ran out cus my dad was gay n left the lights on during church too! but yeah =/ im never gonna drive that car agen. lol PRAYING FOr a new one =/ stupid shit box.

my drivers goal is to hit an animal =D EVERY driver has to hit an animal lol!

rearrange

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 03:34:57 GMT

new yearbook... new theme, retro sounds good
everything else is just meh alright i guess
=) I get my own key
washington NARCON leadership conference? nov. 3-5 maybee itd be cool lol getaway... but eee here i go again missing school =/
starting to think i shoulda laid low this year instead of re-gaining the titles. but wat would i do if i wasnt doing something? ....please i dont need a last years repeat.

AHHH I HATE ECONOMICS! its sooo aHHH! lol at least i have steph, ryan n marcus LOL but wTH non of us understand this teacher.
"buh-ta or marg-rin"
"ray-charles"
"raquell"

...n its still kinda funny that the career paths called me n nicole retarded =/ LOL like seriously.

u know wats cool cotton candy i have the WEIRDEST craving right now

hahah u know that thing when u wanna be soo busy so that u can avoid doing other things that u dont wanna do so you pre occupy yourself so that you can avoid what u really need to do. yehhhhhhh.

so its 11:30 i really DONT wanna do homework, i need a new time killer ljs getting soo blahhh

senior year

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 01:20:58 GMT

okay new school year...

im sick n tired of my every day bull.. so average.. so all the time.. so freaking long.
starts of lil and builds up till you explode
im getting rid of it. honestly i dont care n e more.
drop it NOW

great. calculus night school, least i have someone to take it with now.

3rd off is SUCH a great break, yeheee i can do n e thing =)

and...

camp training today was awsome!
priceless: double phones, double ears... whoa u can hear EVERYTHING; mortal combat wanna bees; and 7 ppl making a song haha AHHHWEEE
awwh i saw the high school musical thing today too it was soo cute!

fantasize

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 06:30:50 GMT

lmfao its just a phase... but its a complicated one hahaha
so its like 2:30 in the morning.. and i slept right after i came back from shout. so now im nto tired a n e more. but i sitll dont feel like blogging... cus im nto that energized either! but Im SOOO AMUSEDDDD! so theres this site that i kinda stole from ben n there are all these quize's n for some eason i found this amusing

Your Livejournal Final Fantasy.
LiveJournal Username
Who is your favorite Final Fantasy hero?
Inversely, who is your favorite Final Fantasy villain?
What is your weapon of choice?
Moogles or Chocobo?
So, wanna go camp Valkurm Emperor then go farm beehive chips in Giddeus?

Angsty hero with pointy hair and a MYSTERIOUS PAST.	01smiile
Main hero's romantic interest that can summon stuff!	touj0urs
The diminuitive Black Mage. BLACK MAGES RAWK.	m1shizzle
The rough and tumble airship captain!	andrrea
Uh ohes! COMIC RELIEF! No one likes your character.	1adysoull
The strong but silent ninja who only has three lines.	infa__miss
The extremely hyper girl that can talk with animals and crap.	xdeleteradiox
Angry goth with a ten foot katana who wants to use the power of the planet to become a god	_hazelnut


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my turn

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 02:45:52 GMT

awwh went to go see my new baby cousin yesterday =) he's soo... WHITE :S wth... lets see his mommy's filipino.. his daddy's spanish :S but those kidns that rnt from spain.. like errrr shoot i forgot where from but yeh.. how the hell is he so white. haha =( sighs.. i wanted a girl haha!
heres Johan Chareles [JC] Taguicana Duran ...

...no idea who names their kid that either.. but SURE =)
lmfao honestly if u ask me.. he kinda looks like every other baby =/ but he's soo cute n small!

okay so 2 days ago i went to sobeys... cus my mom said to buy lettuce for the tacos i was making.. i came home n.... i kinda bought cabbage =/ HOW THE HELL m i supposed to knwo the difference LOL

today went to aunts boyfriends farm.... errrrrr =/ lets jus say im never moving to orangeville.
ahah im a "suburbian girl" ...not too city.. but DEFINATELY IN MY LIFE not country.
so after running through a forest and a field full of shit, and getting chased by donkeys and horses.. THEN stepping in shit because i was running away from donkeys and horses...i've come to the conclusion that im never gonna buy a farm.. with actual animals. everything there was kinda messy and rusty? i think the best thing there was the trampaline.. to bad we couldnt swim tho.. only gay ppl cover their pool in the summer! wth. and it wouldve been good... 15 feet deep :D i love. bugs everywhere... dogs everywhere... animals everywhere. oh man. I just cant! hahaha =) but it wasnt soo bad!
AHAH wHEN we were driving back we saw gangsters in "down town" orangeville.. hahaha they looked n acted like they were sooo tough smokin beside some shack... lol they "reppin dem streets of ...orangeville" hahaha they're EVERYWHERE! ahhh!

back for 3

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 02:47:06 GMT

montreal conference was good!

highlights
- never did i really see how much a person could change in such short period of time
- never did i realize a cookie can burn a whole floor and stink up ppl cloths in 15 min
- crazy worships
- bus ride home!!! - mafia & movies. bring it on: "SHUT UP crouching tiger"
- LOL ppl that suck BADLY at mafia *ahem michael & nikka
- crazy mafia, loud mafia, STUPID civillian mafia
- security
- TOP THREE DANCE =) - oh dance... & the team .. didnt really expect all that stuff to pay off.. but hard work n everything did (y)
- session 3
- waking up.. really late

yeahh id ont really feel like long blogging this soo keep it short.

lets see.. on monday i went to spadina wit kayla n geoff n che... soo che broke a necklace n the store n we just kinda "walked" away fromt he mess.. then we got stalked by some weird looking asian guy. oh man i should go to spadina after i get paid. so tuesday was no different. i went to go pick up my contacts n then i went to watch pulse... which is mmm its okay not as scary as the decent but mehhhh its okay if u watched white noise.. you dunneed to watch pulse its like exactly the same.. the monster things are the same too. so then waiting for the bus n there was this scary old guy n he kept staring at me n my friend... n then we had to get on the same bus as him.. but my friend was taking another bus :S so i was stuck wit the scary guy.. n all the way to my freaking stop i thought he just wouldnt stop.. haha but LUCKILY he got off the stop before me. holy if we got off at the same time id like runn my ass home. today went to work.. did a scavenger hunt... came in half n hour after we were supposed to ... opps. NI COOKED... without burning something :D YAY

well there you goo didnt miss much

n congrats to my aunt that called me at 2 int he morning to tell me she had a baby. LOL n great me saying "OH COOL i wanna come see IT tomorrow!"

tolerance

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 04:48:51 GMT

lets see...
theres only so much you can tolerate with patience, while being calm, cool, and collected.

i smile. no matter wat happens, or how fcked up everything else is, i smile. i put up with everything. everything. im not asking for anything, just a little leanience cus its not my responsibility. its only 7 days. and over said:
theres a difference between loosing and embarrasment.

on a brighter note, nothing gets you as calm cool and collected as a nice cold ice home made ice cap =) thnxx buuuuuhdy.

i need out. NOW. maybe montreal early wouldve been a better idea.

happy early birthday anna

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 02:42:25 GMT

**happy early birthday anna =)**

omgadd i <3 you x infinity n im soo glad we're still tight especially since we've kinda drifted. but sall good.. you know how two boobs are like twins. great minds think a like, feel alike yo we get eachother. its soooo cool how we can still talk n everything even tho we dont hang out as much as we can. but WOW understanding to infinity and beyond. its soo good to have someone that wont tell me what i did wrong, we can learn together n evrything. wow todays talks were awsomeee got stuff out i've been waiting for for like EVERRRRR. our Metathesiophobia/tropophobia, we'll find someway to get over it. n yeah im not gonna blog it but u know the rest n thnx for everything <3. n i hope you had a mighty good time today =)

okay so took anna out for her pre-birthday party with angela. met up wit her at meadowvale...literally bumped into some random guy that was with her n gian. then we poking her big ass boobs that ALL OF THE SUDDEN just grew haha! got to square ran our asses to freaking wall mart for mkkiedz then ran all the way back n watched devil wears prada, it was okay.. but i swear after all the snobbyness her boss gave her she soo coulda ended that movie early. walked around square for a bit then took the bus home. bahaha oh the bus. so we sat at the back of the bus and there was this REALLY REALLY REALLY bad armpit smell so we sprayed it with victoria secret... then IT WAS STILL THERE. so later these guys come on n they meet up with their friend that sat near us.. n ONE Guy sat beside angela. hahahahah awwwwh angela your such a teaseee ;) n me n anna were laughing n making fun of her at the same time. cus i swear SHE KEPT LOOKIng aT THEM.. baitt! well they were okay looking.. but still it was soo queer. then they're friend got off.. then 2 stops later they got off.... uhhh THE STINK was suddenly GONE! hahahhahaha it was the guys. EWW then when they got off they were like waving by :| .. freaks. the point is.. never underestimate the stench of a so-so looking guy... it could be the one sitting next to you muahaha. angela left then we went to annas, we made funnel cake, talked x infinity, n took pics hahaha most of which were deleted. i had a REALLY fun day, hey anna maybe girls rnt so bad haha.

those guys that are the perfect friends...

guys dont talk about their feelings - time u can use to talk about yours; they wont talk about them selves when you need cheering up

they dont gossip as much - takes slower to get around

dont care - they wont freak out

give advice - only when needed, okay sure u prrly wont go with their advice.. but it cheers you up that they're trying, plus u can always have a good laugh at what they say

drama free - they dont OVER EXAGGERATE or freak out about the smallest things, they only freak when neccessary

they're stupid - anything they do will make you laugh
yeah some girls have these too and even if they dont still i love you girls soo much cus ur there. so laddies n fagss you know who you are =) thanks for putting up with my shit, and you know im always here to put up yours hahah just throw it to me =P

as for some RandR [random&retarded]
life never works as planned... if it did it wouldnt be life.
going back to a certain gr.10 commtech video sometimes its not the people around you changing, its you. its a scary thought. a simple change can rock your whole vision, like a change in schedual sometimes. sometimes its good, sometimes its not so good. im scared of change, but things have changed lately n i've just settled down ... i cant change it all over agen just like that. its like when you move into a new house... n u unpacked.. then u have to move out agen and unpack agen to another house. Its hard. some people can take it some people cant. i guess im the kinda person that goes with the irrational rational a.k.a the retarded way to do things - but in a way it kinda makes sense. i make choices that make things more complicated than they should be n i guess i should stop. but even when things are simplistic its hard to see the outcome, so you gotta think around it. iunno if n e one understands this hahah but its in like "rachee brain lingo" or something heh. For some reason one step forward, means two steps back, n i always end up in the same spot. i guess today my perspective on the second chance changed. its like a backtrack that just brings you all the way back to the place you left off.. unless proven otherwise. soo delicate yet so easy to give. so unless proven otherwise, you can prevent the complicated from happening. n its simple from there. butlike i said, sometimes things just dont work as planned.

virginia vacay -back to reality

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 02:17:55 GMT

Oh-my-chickennnns
virginia was awsome and beautiful... i kinda dont even have the pictures on the comp yet.. but i'll blog anyway =/ besides i barely post them haha
well yeah a 2 day -or- 17 hour drive really makes you think sometimes, especially when you have a beach in your temporary back yard. hotel definately paid off.. hahah with a discount from a filpino guy.. you know that thing filipino parents doo.. right when they figure someones filpino they use it to their advantage if they're working somewhere... or if they find them some where else they start talking to them.. and one of the mandatory questions of that conversation is where int he filipines are you from.. assumming its a province. but yeah they did that a lot :|. omgaddd the hotell was freaking <3 Freee already made break fast that my cousins n i ate every day... 3 times a day.. cus the break fast started at 6 going to 9. so here was the morning deal:

wake up at 5:30 ..get ready,
6:go down n get food, go on the balcony n watch dolphins
then at about 6:30 :go back down and get more food.. then go on the beach and watch more dolphins
7: no more dolphins so jus put ur feet in freezing cold water with sand
7:15: build castles/ditch competitions with my cousins haha it was so funny n pointless. i swear if you've ever tried to build a ditch near the water.. it kinda washes away when the waves come. so the goal was to dig ur ditch so low and put a huge pile of shit infront of it that the water wouldnt go in and wash yuors away. HAHA I OBVIOUSLY lost first...n it kinda sucked bahahahha so usually id just kinda stomp on theres n fill it in. on the 2nd day we were there frederick [lil cousin] dug his ditch hahaha AND A baby lobster was swimming in it it was soo funny he ran all the way back to the boardwalk cus he was so nastified haha awh poor kid.
well yeah 7:30: BREAKFAST # 3 come in from the beach and get more food and bring it up
then around 8 before we left to go see things or shopping go down n get more food and put it in the fridge so we can eat it later.. and on your way out.. grab something to eat in the car
... so yes everyone.. i kinda got fat :S
well there was the relaxing part x infinity. oh yeah plus there was like a lil snack thing 1st night they gave us ice cream.. 2nd night we had chilli 3rd night we had =/ i dont even remember. but whatever it was good. ugh the beach is BEAUTIFUL i cant wait to post pictures.

so i saw chinese protest in washington.. kinda freaky :S some guy was on a table n this other guy was pretending to cut him up n take his organs... something about them taking peoples organs and killing them on purpose just to sell their organs.. thats freaky.haha k well the funny part was it was in front of the chamber of commerce building.. HAHAH THAt my parents n my uncle thought was the white house.. its CLEARLY cream ... n we tried to tell them but they were being gay n they took like 23402214730192 pictures infront of it.. haha with the protesters in the background :S.

SHOPPINGG x infinity there.. but i actually didnt get as much as i thought i would :( we spent more time at other shopping centers than at grove city.. WHICH WAS insanee... but the other places were more expennsive, i hope im goin back there thooo omg summer clearance =)

so there was this guy i saw in the elevater one time when i jus came from the beach.. n he was so weird. but yeah he's like so where yah from n iwa slike toronto n he was like.. oh yeah. n i was like yeah .. n my stupid lil cousin was like "THATS IN CANADA" ...noshit :S its not like he lived very far so i was like where you from n he was like i go to college in new york... then he looked at me funny n he was like HEY Dont they have like pot bars there n they're legal age
is like 16 for everythikng. =/ uhh weirdo.. im gonang et out now even though its not my floor n take the next one.. well i didnt say that but hey if the legal age was 16 ..it really wouldnt make a difference, except thing would be easier but still skys the limit. yeah wierd pointless storye but yeah it was amusing.

i miss elevators and pressing all the buttons onetime we presed all the buttons n we were like on the top floor right so the elevator jus kinda goes down.. but then my dad was comming ON the elevator.. he goes in and looks at the buttonms he's like "OKININAM, im not going in derr" and comes out hahah it wouldve been funnier if he went on it :S but yeah.

so yeah thought a lot... thinking -not so good thing for me- but whatever i guess it'll just work. things dont always work the way you want them to, and you never know when things take a turn for the worst... like when you play with crabs in a cooler when u go crabbing... if u stick a stick in there... dont assume a crab wont reach your hand =/ trust... im experienced. but yeah i miss staying up late on the balcony and looking out while listening to music.. with the wind.. it was soo... relaxing. well back to reality gotta deal with the shit here. this should be fun?
welps theres a lil of my vacay

here today gone tomorrow

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 23:54:12 GMT

WOW i was grounded =/
yeah for a bit this week which kinda killed my week but its okay cus im leaving tomorrow. ugh just so happened that the week i was grounded... was the week my internet got caught off. haha it got serious the internet ppl said we'd get cut off for a month if i got another virus =/ uhhh oh stupid lime wire.

... soo dont ever let me on expedia.ca ...im in more trouble =/ booked a not so affordable hotel after expenses .. errrr OH WELL =) thats what my parents get for making me book it like 2 days before we go. anyways im excited kinda i still havent packed yet but still goin back there is weird. i wanna go shopping like madd!
priority list:
***1) shoes for work
1.2) SHOES FOR ME =)
1.5) sandals
2) bathing suit
3) sunglasses
4) shirts
okay... sticking to the list, but if i jus so happen to slip on a sale :D SO BE IT
itinerary:
day 1: driving
day 2-4: virginia beach
day 5-6: pensylvania
day 7: ? surprise?
day 8: homebound

departure: saturday 6am
return: 23rd

yeahh major planning w/ ppl when i come back! but the time away will be nice. no more mississauga ugh... what can u do with no bus fare n no other money. im sick of the usual [here & there]... LETS GO CRAZY!
well i should get packing but i'll leave room for the merchandise. you know your uber filipino when ur mom says dont pack a lot cus ur gonna buy stuff.. then when you buy stuff your expected to take off the tags and wrinkle it a bit just so they dont tax us when we cross the border lol.

recovering

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 18:10:16 GMT

YAY i can finally at least get up n walk around after all that pain and sitting on my ass for a week
my new love: tylenol 3... that my mom thinks im gonna get addicted to so she fully wouldnt lemme take it sometimes -.-
eeew NO pictures were taken so dont ask lol i made sure of it. n for those who visited me =) thnx. [but no thanx to david cus he kept poking my cheeks grrrrrr] u guys prrly already know i've developed this weird lisp thing UGH I CANT GET RID OF IT =/ speech therapy? its hard. well i still cant eat real food. n it sucks right now cus im SOOOOOO hungry.

yay found out im gone to Virginia on the 15th =) YES shopping

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525,600 min [+1 hour]
weird its even been this long, i even forget. but its something.
over this time ive grown lol anna we've grown up =) we're mature n cautious.
in away i guess im recovering both ways? but its good
its cool what i've learnt in the past 21 months, but this.... this is just kinda freaky and weird. taking it from my reaction now... exept i actually wouldnt change a thing. i've been taught so many how to... DONTS, and dos.
formerly assertive, wise, and thought i knew everything, now clueless n thoughtfull, and extreemly cautious of future endevours or decisions.
so missfit i guess theres our answer we're just growing up...n every year we know more like school hehe.

everything and their intricate complexity ...ness

WISDOM TEETH OUT TOMORROW!

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 01:40:57 GMT

omg im getting my wisdom teeth out tomorrow! im so scared =/
bed wridden and drugged up for the next week or two?
hope not but we'll see.

okay well since i wont be able to err talk properly for a while lets get this shit out once more.

k so this morning i went to julius' to do a talk at the household head training. okay soo yeah part of that talk was being friends with your house hold, but really it reiliterated what a friend really is. i can honestly say that some of the people i call "friends" havent really been friends to me lately. They're just kinda there. its like when your friends with someone:
- your there no matter what, no matter what shit is going on in your damn life, you ARE concerned in matters of your friends, or at least there to listen to them. you dont know if their problems worse, like HONESTLY all they need is to be talked to.
- you DO NOT talk shit behind their back because you guys got into a lil misunderstanding or for some reason they're annoying you and piss you off. you kinda put up with it or tell it to your friend straight up, you dnt go to some next person n say all that shit to them.
- friends arent a [convenience]. they're obviously NOT only there for your convienicnce or however you spell it, sure your busy, but that doesnt give u a right to ignore them if their your friends. You can just pick them up and drop them when its convenient for you, or when u "feel like it"
- friends are those people who u can call in the middle of the night i if u have a problem and they're just wondering why and wont be pissed off
- they're the people that will stand by you thick and thin no matter whats happening in either of your lives
- they're the ones that'll get you through the most stuff and exchange advice, both listen AND talk
- sometimes all you have to do .. is listen.

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& i am very dissapointed in you - who wouldve thought
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but for that someone else - thanks for everything. ever. you've been there for me as a true friend through EVERYTHING i've ever gone through since i've known you. theres never been a doubt in my mind that u wouldnt be there for me. honestly thank you. haha its funny how you know my limits and stuff and even when im the advice giver... sometimes we just switch. thanx for being so real to me, my "big bro" your a rare person that keeps things to themselves and im so thankful for that. like i cant find a way to even say thank you enuff. (AHA this is so gay but i feel like writing this so BLAH.) but yeah ever since bak in the day i've never really said thanx to you. so thanx for lookin out, n im here for you too.
i ♥ you =)

i see you peeek peeeek

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 02:18:41 GMT

you know whats scary.. STALKERS!
not that i have any haha just saying.
+ some ppl just need to let ppl be and they dun have to know every single move someone makes - not that im bitter or ne thing its jus kinda funny

examsss - taking it easy, jus dont seem to care and its kinda fun... until i get my report card but hey muahaha i have a plan.

typical

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 02:30:42 GMT

yeah srry i suddenly feel the need for this what the hell?

okay i understand things happen... i really do. but honestly im ALWAYS there no matter what im here =) ... but seriously.. if u got shit to say to me.. say it to my effing face cus i dun need ur bs behind my back. gees i swear u think that ppl dont hear the shit you say.. you think everyone likes you.. n the world revolves around you. haha yeah everyone reads all of these stupid blogs about people.. but its people like you that always make ppl do this. because when they need to talk... your what . gone not there for them anhymore all of the sudden cus its suddenly not about you anymore. im not trash talking you.. im "just making sure" that you know what ur doing... which oddly u prrly dont but whatever. its okay i really dont mind. its just pure bull that u gotta say shit behind my back... when ur actually infront of me. fcuk you. im really srry that im always there for you...iunno whats happend but yeah... wow i dont understand you anymore. you've changedd sooo much i dont even know you anymore and its hard to tell whats what. so i jus smile and whatever but yeah.

just had to let that out.

meh keeping things in lately has been making me sick literally. iunno it'll happen soon... dunno when but soon i can feel it. it hurts. anxiety hurts, no idea how long i can hold this for.